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I have been playing video games almost all my life.

Through the years, I've noticed that if I start to play another game suddenly the previous one is losing its significance, and I stop playing it.

But I can't stop thinking about what does it mean for our lives.

I figured out long ago that life is a game. I am not the only one who's come to this conclusion. For example, Shakespeare said, "All the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players: they have their exits and their entrances."

Living my life like a game, I see other people as characters, my daily tasks as quests, and my life targets as achievements.

A First-Person Massively Multiplayer Role-Playing Game. Probably the best one ever made.

But something else is bothering me.

Because whenever I play an excellent video game, I get something I call 'A False Sense of Achievement'. Let's say we have a target. When we accomplish an action that brings us closer to this goal, we feel good, and when we encounter obstacles, we feel bad. This is how our mind works.

Playing other games than life makes me feel as if I have reached my targets already, and the same thing that happens when I change a game happens with life. I get bored of it, and yet I get the good feelings I wanted to receive. Because my targets shifted.

It's not my book I'm trying to finish at that moment. It's killing this boss. I find it all the more challenging to get back to life's meaningful things after that.

I'm trying to understand how to establish a healthy relationship with other games if it's actually possible. Because it seems to me like two games can't live healthily with one another.

It's a theory, and I'd love to hear your thoughts. What do you think? How can different games co-exist with one another?

By the way, The Dance of Life and Dance has reached 50K words! It's hard to believe the crazy things that are happening in this story, and I'm eager to see where it goes!

'Game Over' is not on the menu

*In the picture - one of the beautiful sights our open world has to offer.

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So basically, I can do the same as it happened in the real world.


I can do it better.

HAHA that’s what’s fun about writing a book isn’t it?!


Shit I’m thinking in Spanish now.

I want D to be a shaman. I can make him tell his story about his life in Karnis!

It works.

Now the other person, why did I write her?

Because Beatriz wouldn’t start a conversation and D wouldn’t as well.

They need the glue. She’s the glue.

OHHH shit I totally forgot to make a character bio for them! It’s very important that every character would have those. Damn that’s pretty shitty that I’ve been neglecting it.

Get it together Tal.


It will be a great gift for future Tal.

Yes we should make all the characters so fucking good that future Tal wouldn’t need to think so much.

*In the picture—keeping my sub-personalities at bay.

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"Free is all alone? Ha." 🤣 Nature laughed at me as I was broken down on the hard rock earth. I was panting. Exhausted. Afraid. Nature was everywhere. 🌿🌱🍀 Free? No. It's the opposite of Freedom. Nature crashed on me for hours and I understood that I'd never win. I could do anything I wanted. But what good would it do if I a snake could jump on me with every step? As Jordan Peterson said, humans live in an amalgam [combination] of Nature and Society. You can see it as back as the story of the Garden of Eden. It was a garden with a wall around it. The safe Nature. And even there, in a place of Ideal, there was a snake 🐍 "But I am free. Nobody can stop me from doing anything!" I replied to her. "Look at yourself," she told me, "You prevent yourself from doing. And besides, how FREEDOM is DOING?" It was too difficult to comprehend. All of my life, I strived for Freedom. "I'm a free person 🙄" I used to say to Society, "I can't be held down. I need to do what I want." But I was a fool to want that because it's a non-existent state ❌ As I understand it, Freedom is the ability to choose in any given circumstance, also known as Negative Liberty. It's the absence of restrictions by Society. This could be achieved on a lonely island 🏝️ You have your choice. Does your choice mean anything on a lonely island? That's up to you. Liberty [Positive], though, is the Freedom in security. It's to have all your tools to DO whatever you'd like, but it doesn't mean you're not restricted. Because laws, rules, and Society give you this security. And the frustrating thing is, both can't be achieved 🙅‍♀️ The more you lean toward Liberty, the less you have Freedom, and the opposite is just as valid. Finding the right balance for you is one of life's missions, in my opinion. It constantly changes, and what fun is the fact that we can adjust according to it? 💪 More Nature or Society? More Freedom or Liberty? "Right now, I'd just like to get away from you," I said to her with determination, still exhausted 😮‍💨

"Good like with that," she laughed sarcastically. With my heavy bag on my shoulders, I walked further toward Society 👣

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