I've always lived mostly inside my head.
As a child, it was usual for me to daydream, staring blankly at nothing at all, letting my thoughts run all over. I would stumble, I would fall, taking no notice of my surroundings.
People around me didn't accept it quite well.
If it was someone who once told me, "How is it your brother is a pilot, and you came out like…this?" or my math teacher at 9th grade who told the class she has a song that reminded her of me and sang in front of all of them "Oh it's not normal, I have an idiot friend. One a bit confused, one who stumbles into walls,"
I smiled to hide my shame. 😔
I was always kind of naïve, believing people are good and mean me well, only to have the sharp pain of words stub me in my back over and over again. Words stuck in my mouth as I wanted to answer.
Things have changed since then; I found my place, and day by day, I discovered how to love myself 😍
I was inspired by George R. R. Martin's words when he wrote about identity; "Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you."
With that, I think traumas are a door to a better you. That is
if you're willing to look beyond what happened and grow from it. Those traumas I mentioned, amongst others, made me who I am today, and I'm happy they happened.
Today, I'm proud of my daydreaming; it's where my imagination comes from.
The world in my head is beautiful, and I wish you could see it.
Well, in a way, I'm showing you right now, but it's nothing like what you'll see in my book, The Dance of Life and Death 💃
Please share in the comments words and quotes that made you grow; to show people it's possible ❤️
P.S. I'm about to reveal my first short story. Brand new. Stay tuned 😉
*In the picture - daydreaming